Dream or Reality?

Nookie's POV

I was pacing my apartment trying to figure out what to do. Wondering if Randy was really telling the truth now and wanting to go hunt down Katalina and beat the fuck out of her for even having the guts to show up at my door. Who does she think she is anyway? Fucking slutty bitch.

I punched my punching bag once more before unwrapping my hands and going in to take a shower, while I was in there I cleared my head. By the time I got out I knew I had to talk to Randy again.

I dried off and got dressed, I grabbed my cell and called him. It rang and rang. "Fuck." I hung up and walked out my door in search for him. I had to find out what Katalina was talking about. If he knew what it was I was going to get it out of him one way or another.

I searched the streets for him and even went by his hotel room. I couldn't find him anywhere. This was getting ridiculous. Where could he be hiding in this small ass town? I went by the park again but there was no sign of him. Shit. Maybe Katalina was right. He could always be with her. It wouldn't be the first time. I had to quit that shit, I kept talking myself into believing he wasn't being truthful. I had no reason not to believe him after everything he told me.

I was lost without him right now and I didn't know what to do. It was becoming frustrating and I hated that.

I continued walking through town looking for him until I came back to the park for the third time. I sunk down on a bench. I needed time to think and try to figure out where he could be. Maybe I just kept missing him. Maybe he was looking for me to. Maybe I'm going crazy. Maybe I'm already crazy and all of this is my alternate reality I created. If it is why didn't I create a more sane one? One where I'm happy. Where nothing has went wrong in my life. God, I think I am insane. I sat there with my hands over my face and my elbows on my knees thinking about shit for what seemed like forever.

Dark came and I curled up on the park bench, things were not getting any better no matter how long I was on that damn bench. I was so lost inside myself. I was fighting a losing battle and I couldn't seem to quit. I wrapped my arms around myself and cried silently, watching animals frolicing in the dark. It was pathetic I know. But what was I to do? I couldn't find the one person I needed now more than ever. No sign he was even in town. Maybe he was gone without a trace. Maybe I'm dreaming, yeah I'll wake up and none of the Katalina shit will have ever happened.....